Last night I spoke to Rio. Ive been speaking to him for a while and he said somethings to me that really blew me away. For one I feel after all this I dont want to be in a relationship again. I feel like I have too many kids and too many issues to be with anyone and Ive been saying this for a while. I think O for me was a fantasy. he was a fantasy for me because for the first time here was a man that I really loved and I do love O very much..i just know that we wont be together. I think hes bipolar because his moods swings are extreme among other things. Anyway Rio thinks I should give him a chance. He wants me to hang out with him. I told him that Im too old for him (hes 24) and thathe needed a girl his own age but he says that he wants to know me and see where we could go. Im kinda overwhelmed because I didnt think any man would want a woman with 4 kids...and I told him what I wanted...which is just a man that willbe a man and let me be me. Im really tired fighting. I just want to be happy with my life and try to find someone that will really care about me. I dont know whats going to happen next but Im sure the future is going to be interesting. Anyways nene is crying so let me feed him and Ill try to come back later.
peace