Flow.....

How can you ever understand the way you made me feel?
Pain like this would take a century to heal,
The nights I woke up with tears streaming from My eyes
Leaving a pool of tears as an expression of My demise.
When he moved in me...i wished you were here
I wanted to call you at 3am but I knew you didnt care
In my mind i created a fantasy of what it should have been
Me you ..our new son to be..everything..a real family
But id look around and see what was the hard reality
That there was no us ..nothing else....a single one just me.
So he was born and you never knew....I didnt know if you knew
I sat and waited for a sign ..it should have come through
but nothing..no word until 4 days later you said wow
and i thought is that all you have to say...no words..i mean how..?
a test is in the air....a humiliating testimony of what happens whgen things go wrong
and the end is in the sight...My pregnancy swan song
A new chapter, a new page...a new verse in this sonnet
and I hope that the conclusion is everything that you wanted.