Its 4 am and I havent been able to sleep for hours. Maybe its the test in the morning thats making me feel jumpy..regardless I feel a little clearer now. After this test is done Im going to walk away from Omar and his family. Im tired of drama and I feel it would be better for me and the baby to just let them go head with their lives without us messing up whatever it is that they have. Omar missed out but I look at our son and I know that this was all worth it. I know that no metter what anyone says this child was borne out of love and if it was just my love then thats ok..because my love is enough for our son. Now I undersdtand why peiple say he was just a sperm donar because thats what he was. Hes not a father,,hes not even a daddy. He is genetically attached to my son but other than that he has no real connection to him and thats ok. My son has me and Im a good mommy. I can still turn life around to benefit ll of my kids and thats what Im going to do. thank you God for helping me to find my way through this hard time.