So here I am after a weekend of hustle...i came on my period yesterday which explains the crazy moodswings and basic craziness. i cried about 10 times yesterday and thats definetly hormones...well i miss o a lot but i havent bent under thepressure...see i realise that its me that im mad at,,,o only talks the way he does to me because i let him. Had i stopped him from the start then he would never feel that he could say the stuff he does but because i have such low self esteem....i accept it.Imscared that if i let him carry on...this is going to be the blueprint for the rest of our relationship so im taking care of nene and trying to focus again and hopefully hes doing the same. Noone really knows howinsecure i am...sometimes i wish i could just vanish because i hate people looking at me..im just uncomfortable with that whole thing...to be honest i cant wait to leave this place...i threw out a bunch of stuff today and tomorrow imgoing to put more out...its time to start getting ready to leave this bum town...
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